habits

they listed addictions
like merit badges
coke-pot-booze
H and E
a spash of L
everyone has
their private hell

habits
stronger than love
pharmaceutical soups
spilling diagramed
brain waves
I watched
moments flash
on memory

psychedelic colours
and desperate
euphoria
waiting-trembling
tumbling
in sweet fluidity
the chill
evaporating
without notice

actions
without purpose
an empty fear
numbed nothingness
death defying
again-again
and again

I stand outside
inhaling
Moments flash
on memory

 

reflection

reality
scarred
with
bright
contact

provides