as for myself
I choose not to believe in war
holy or not
although I understand that it has been on
history’s greatest hits list for
eons
so I tune into my own religion
          but I just don’t know if I believe in
          what it is I don’t believe in
          anymore

if I were Christ
I would be a drink of water
if I were a Buddha
I would gladly kill myself in the garden of your eyes forever
if I were Mohammed
Mecca would be the journey in your touch
if I were a Jew
the holy land would be the covenant of my blood singing hosanna in your veins
if I were an atheist
I would call your every footfall god leaving footprints in the moment

each cell has memory
has soul
every chair a tree
          this is my religion:
the sacred life of the savage heart unbroken
the straight line bent by promise

no joke
I miss true friendship like I miss my hair sometimes
          no regrets
          everything in it’s own time
but
it's about
          time
and these days
fear surrounds everyone
like a smoking halo

so for now
I just fall

          falling

it's what
I do
it's what is best for
me

meet you in the fall
my friend

I fall every time
I am easy this way

unborn again